An Amazing Week of Camp

Well as most of you know I am playing music for a living. We (the bruce clinton band) just played at Camp WOW in Oklahoma which by the way is in the middle of nowhere. I haven't had a chance to write about his last week and I just got finished sending an enormous email to a girl I barely know that I met at camp and told her about how great camp was for me. She probably thinks I'm crazy know - but anyways.

It has amazed me how God has answered so many prayers and blessed me in my spiritual preparation and my desire to be patient and pride-less. If there is one thing I have been learning and finally seen an improvement in - it has been my attitude while playing music. Some of my best guy friends can attest to that as they all know my attitude can really suck a lot of the time. But of course I won't list who those friends are so they can affirm my admittance... Cough cough (Jason, Brett, Chris, Cass, Roger)

I have finally figured out that I must "leave my pride by my side". The worship machine as I like to call it is a body working together to help lead others to the throne of grace. Musical worship to me - is an outpouring of internal yearning for knowledge, truth, wisdom, and love by means of emotional responses and acknowledgments of who God is, what he has done for you and others and what he is doing and will do.

This last week enabled me to see an actual ministry of music be poured out not only in song but by the way we interacted and shared our hearts with kids, young adults, and adults. It means so much more to people when they know your heart. If people can see your heart then it allows them to feel like they can trust you - it shows them that you aren't afraid to break through the barriers of awkwardness, perception, and short comings. I'm not sure how many people came to know Christ for the first time but I am estimating it was around 25 or 30.

I have also come to experience the blessing of spiritual preparation. Earnestly seeking the Lord's blessing on a service and asking for his hand to guide things is truly honored by God. When you desire to yield to his spirit he does indeed help and allow for it to work. I have experienced it. From a guy who is a pessimist fighting to become and optimist with the lord's help you can trust me on this one.

His spirit engulfed the people at this camp - not just in worship times but throughout the week. It was so refreshing and encouraging to see and hear these things happen despite that past weeks. So for all of you out there who read this (2 or 3 of you) - God is good.


Our God truly is amazing. To him be all the honor, glory, and praise forever. Amen

Prayer is amazing

It is unbelievable to me how much I DON'T pray. I'm not going to go through all the typical junk and jargon of what I do instead of praying or why it is so easy to do other things because we have all heard it a thousand times. But, when I read the scriptures the one thing that has been standing out to me is how much Godly men prayed. Jesus prayed all the time. It was the connection or comuunication of God to us and us to God. Pray for me please and pray all the time. Call me and ask if I am praying... please.. pray.. pray

Only One True Love?

So after turning 22 and only dating one girl in my whole entire life I began to wonder. In essence I am asking or posing questions to myself concerning love that I thought would have been answered by now. I had always thought that I would have met or been dating the girl I would marry in college. But, that assumption was incorrect. Apart from all the details I want to ask one question. I'm sure it is a question that all of us have asked ourselves. And of course I have my own answer but it's a flawed one at best.

Is there only one person you are supposed to fall in love with?

I would however concede that just because you are supposed to be with a specific person doesn't necessarily mean that you will. - that is my thought anyways

My only example would be adam and eve. God knew that none of the animals would suffice and so, made Eve specifically for adam. He didn't make Eva or Evie and Eve and said "Adam you decide - I don't care" he made Eve - just her. No one else.

I come into contact with a lot of different people and most people tell me that God doesn't care. That he has multiple women you can marry and you can choose whomever.

I don't really think that "that" is the way it is. But, my only example would be Adam and Eve. However, there is a huge thing called "sin" which messes everything up. Because of sin we have divorce and single mothers raising children and whatever else you can think of. So I am willing to concede that my perception or view is flawed and incorrect but it seems so perfect - don't you think? - maybe like a plan - a perfect plan maybe?

But, I also do think that we (people) can mess it up. Maybe in God's divine plan we can be with the person we were supposed to be with while at the same time - not be with the person that we were designed to be with.

I don't know - that sounds like God would be holding out the best that possibly could be - but still I don't know. I guess it's because I haven't found her yet. If "she" even exists at all for me. Maybe we don't really get over our first serious relationship for a long time. Or maybe it's just longer for some people. Or maybe it's just longer for me.

Sometimes I think that I had my one chance with real, authentic, romantic love and that I blew it. - I think that my one shot was not to mess it up completely, but that is exactly what I did. And now she's gone.

Well - this could possibly be an area for further discussion. So for all two or three of you who read my blog - give me some feedback.

Shauna - You usually comment - so feel free - tell me what you and stu think.